Brave Side of Lila

Twelve Grader, Let’s Go !

Twenty two months ago, I went to this school by new hope as ten grader. A hope that I can success when I study here, and success in the future. At that time, I felt happy and proud, because I can enter this school. This school full of teenagers who had different mindset with a lot of teenagers outside here. Here, I got positive energy from my seniors. They lead me with pleasure, keep me like their own sister, and also my teachers are teach me by patient. Those reasons built up my spirit and confident to face this period of becoming Senior High School’s student.

Now, I’m almost in the end of eleven grade, and I must face my new life as twelve grader. I have no fear to face it. Myself is full of optimism and spirit. That is the time when I must totally focus for my study and my future. No whine , no procrastinating, and no euphoria for twelve grader.

 There are many hopes that I have. One of my big hope is I can study by well, without any distruction. I evaluate my way of study as long as now, I know there are many things that interrupt my study. The interruption came from organization that I joined. So, when I twelve grader, I will decrease my career on organization. That is not totally, I just want to breath for a while and enjoy my study in academics.

                The power that I have to becoming 12 grader is my consistently. Consistently of pray and study, although there is just a short time I will use it to study. I want to try and try, so I can get the good result and success in the end. Success for National Examination and get the University that I want.

                Another strength is my spirit to reach my goal. I don’t want to stop before my goal reached by my hand. There is a song that can built up my spirit, the tittle is “Spread Our Wings”.

I can dream the impossible

I fear not the obstacles

For if I believe in me

I can make it possible

I’ll shine my light for all to see

For a gem can be polished

Without friction

Nor man, perfected

Without trial

. . .

A Letter to Lila

Malang, May 8^th 2013

Dear myself 8 months later,

Hello myself, are you ok? I hope you are fine. I really miss you. You had passed me, your fun time, your active time as students who likes organization very much, and now you have a new life as 12 grader. I know that you are really busy, on the ground that preparing for your National Examination.

A lot of pressure are coming to you, from yourself, school, family, and your future. Stress, under pressure, and unconfident might accompany your daily life, till your face tired.  I hope your integration and idealism doesn’t disappear from your soul, even though you are in the hard condition like now. Condition that make you should have full attention only for lesson and a lot of tasks. Don’t forget about what have you learn in this great school, friendship, family, and love. You must still keep these. Because you grew up here by those thing.

When you want to motivate yourself, just remember your struggle when you must have remedial of some subjects, how struggle and killer your teacher teach you, and how big support from your friends. You must learn from it. I won’t you fail for the second time. I know you are strong girl.

In other side, your family at home are waiting for your smile. Smile that bring a success story behind it. A success from your satisfying score of National Examination and a good news from Bogor Agricultural Institute.  As long as you study very hard those dream will be come true. However, don’t blame your self if those dream are not satisfying enough. It means that your way is not on that.

In the last of my letter, I hope you can pass your obstacles by well. You must struggle to reach your dream, to make happy yourself, your family, your friends and your God.

Sincerely yours,

Lila Tri Agustin