Brave Side of Lila

Twelve Grader, Let’s Go !

Twenty two months ago, I went to this school by new hope as ten grader. A hope that I can success when I study here, and success in the future. At that time, I felt happy and proud, because I can enter this school. This school full of teenagers who had different mindset with a lot of teenagers outside here. Here, I got positive energy from my seniors. They lead me with pleasure, keep me like their own sister, and also my teachers are teach me by patient. Those reasons built up my spirit and confident to face this period of becoming Senior High School’s student.

Now, I’m almost in the end of eleven grade, and I must face my new life as twelve grader. I have no fear to face it. Myself is full of optimism and spirit. That is the time when I must totally focus for my study and my future. No whine , no procrastinating, and no euphoria for twelve grader.

 There are many hopes that I have. One of my big hope is I can study by well, without any distruction. I evaluate my way of study as long as now, I know there are many things that interrupt my study. The interruption came from organization that I joined. So, when I twelve grader, I will decrease my career on organization. That is not totally, I just want to breath for a while and enjoy my study in academics.

                The power that I have to becoming 12 grader is my consistently. Consistently of pray and study, although there is just a short time I will use it to study. I want to try and try, so I can get the good result and success in the end. Success for National Examination and get the University that I want.

                Another strength is my spirit to reach my goal. I don’t want to stop before my goal reached by my hand. There is a song that can built up my spirit, the tittle is “Spread Our Wings”.

I can dream the impossible

I fear not the obstacles

For if I believe in me

I can make it possible

I’ll shine my light for all to see

For a gem can be polished

Without friction

Nor man, perfected

Without trial

. . .

A Letter to Lila

Malang, May 8^th 2013

Dear myself 8 months later,

Hello myself, are you ok? I hope you are fine. I really miss you. You had passed me, your fun time, your active time as students who likes organization very much, and now you have a new life as 12 grader. I know that you are really busy, on the ground that preparing for your National Examination.

A lot of pressure are coming to you, from yourself, school, family, and your future. Stress, under pressure, and unconfident might accompany your daily life, till your face tired.  I hope your integration and idealism doesn’t disappear from your soul, even though you are in the hard condition like now. Condition that make you should have full attention only for lesson and a lot of tasks. Don’t forget about what have you learn in this great school, friendship, family, and love. You must still keep these. Because you grew up here by those thing.

When you want to motivate yourself, just remember your struggle when you must have remedial of some subjects, how struggle and killer your teacher teach you, and how big support from your friends. You must learn from it. I won’t you fail for the second time. I know you are strong girl.

In other side, your family at home are waiting for your smile. Smile that bring a success story behind it. A success from your satisfying score of National Examination and a good news from Bogor Agricultural Institute.  As long as you study very hard those dream will be come true. However, don’t blame your self if those dream are not satisfying enough. It means that your way is not on that.

In the last of my letter, I hope you can pass your obstacles by well. You must struggle to reach your dream, to make happy yourself, your family, your friends and your God.

Sincerely yours,

Lila Tri Agustin

Which one do you like?

FRIENDSHIP

"FRIENDSHIP"

You and Me

           I knew her, when  I enter this school, Senior High School 10 Malang. She is a girl that have high body and brown skin.  At first, I didn’t know well, who are her, because we are in different class. Only extracurricular Flag Squad Riser (Paskibra) that met both of us. This is an extracurricular that I like very much. In this extracurricular, we know each member and become a family. But, I and her still flat, we are not closer. I think, that is caused by my character. I am quite enough person, that’s make me find difficulties to get a true friend beside me.

            That’s happen continuously, I still find difficulties to make a true friend. But, it’s changed since I in eleven grader. At the first time I entered Eleven Science 7, I sit alone. But, suddenly there is someone who want to sit beside me. Yes, she is her. She have been my desk mate till now. Day by day we pass together. We are getting closer. Actually, we are really different. She is humble person, tomboy, and funny girl. Not like me, who prefer to have corner side and alone by the wind. I don’t know, although we are different, I’m getting comfort when I beside her. Just on her I tell all of my story. I believe on her so much.

            By her, I also learn how to be happy by another person’s happiness. She is talented girl. In this school, she concerned her career to become Pencak Silat athlete. She made me envy by her achievement.   Like today (March 10^th) , she gave me a “bestfriend big hug”. She knew, that I really want to become a Flag Squad Riser of Malang City. We send the application and we pass each level of selection, together. I imagine, that we can rise the flag together on August 17^th 2013 latter. Till the final selection, I hope that my imagination will come true. But, Allah SWT have another decision for us. I can’t continue my dream, but she had accepted as Flag Squad Riser of Malang City. This is the second time I got this failure. After the announcement, she ran behind me and give me a hug. I still defended my tears. I just said congratulation to her with my smile. But, actually she knew what I feel.

            In the deepest of my heart, I cried. My dream from I was Kindergarten couldn’t come true till now. I entrust my dream by her, to keep the Flag till it raises on the top of post.  But, I said “don’t worry and don’t be sad, Lil. Another chance are still waiting for you.” I have been tried to forget it, and going to my another talented. I still keep that Paskibra is a soul, not only by appearance. This is a time, my soul had tested by the fact.

            A true friend will support each other. When someone getting failure and fall down, they will raise another up. And, when someone getting happiness, they will feel that happiness, too. Now, I feel it by my bestfriend’s happiness. She is Eka Ruliana. Thank you for being my bestfriend, Rul. I hope our friendship everlasting.  

Confession of Wanderer Soul

Confession of Wanderer Soul

If I were Explorer

I will explore my self

I will explore this world

Visiting every places in the world

Meet with everyone that have special thing inside their self

Especially those people that have same destiny with me 

See the values of them

Decide whether it’s good or bad
Empathy with their condition
And bring those values to my life for getting better personality

Keep the earth to survive by global condition

Spread campaign to love and take care the earth

Earth have been crying because of us





I know, these effort will hard to do

Obstacles are ready in front of me, to damage my dream





Moon will hide it’s smile to me

Sun will not show it’s best sun shine to me

And earth won’t to be my place to stand



Shall I surrender on that condition ?

Shall i lose by the time ?

Shall I adjourn my journey ?

Shall I look for another hand to raise me up ?

No, exactly No

I will struggle on that condition

I will not lose by the time, because I’m the one who arrange the time

I will continue my journey

I can stand by my legs, even everyone try to fracture it

I’m sure, sun will surrender on me

I will grasp the moon

And earth will obey on me

I’m tho one  make a change in the world by my soul,,,, wanderer

Sound of freedom Girl

Sound of Freedom Girl

I’m a Dreamer. When talking about dream, I remember a song from a boy band who become superstar when I was child. The boy band is WESTLIFE, with their song “I have a dream” :





I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

 Everything in my life that was happened because of my dream. Not at all, but my imagination support my dream to be come true. I like to imagine my life and my future to become coloured.

I came from destitute family. From my childhood, my parents are suggest and ask to me, for become a dreamer. My mother said; “Dear, don’t be afraid to have a dream, because dream  is a thing that built your spirit of life. Don’t be afraid with this limitation”. From that sentence, my mother try to make her daughter become a girl who does not limiting her want, and explore any talent that her daughter  have. For them, dream is fundamental of life. In every span of my activities, my parents suggest me to imagine those activities. So, I can decide which way that I must take. And think about the obstacles and the impact behind my way. For that,  my spirit and motivation are built up, because I’m sure that my dream will come true. When we haven’t dream in our life, our life will pass without exact objective. Time is irredeemable, we must through the time wisely, because time will not come back to us. Set the objective and will spend the time wisely.

Even one of my dream is not come true, I believe another dream are waiting for me and challenge me to make it true.

“When a door close to you, don’t wait at that door to open again for you, because another doors are widely opened to you.”

            But, even I’m a dreamer I don’t spent my time only for dreaming. Beside dreaming, I endeavor to prove my dreams. Because, for me, “life is not for dreaming, but dreaming is for life”. So, I get spirit of life by dreaming.

Don’t afraid to have a dream, explore your self by your dream. We are not limit. We are free to dream.

This is Life

This is life

Full of experience

Experience that we think is a game

Sometimes we lost, another win

It’s part of our life

You have parents beside you

And you have friends beside you

Let’s struggle with them

They will make you win on the game

Reff:

Built your  dream

Control your steer

Make a decision

Reach your chance in every space